Daredevil has a good reason to want Bullseye after him: Bullseye has, or had, or has access to a serum that mimics DD's powers. At first, I thought his guilt was so crippling he was trying to get Bullseye to take him out, and he toys with the idea that he might have been hoping for that outcome.
But he fights to live, he fights for his life. And I found myself holding my breather and hoping for this outcome. See, if anyone has reason to be so depressed that they're suicidal, it's Matt Murdock. All his life, it's been one tragedy after another. My sister describes his life as 'like the Winchester's, just worse and more depressing.' My list of his love life is 'dead, dead, crazy, dead.'
He gave up everything when the Marvel universe rebooted. And yet he still fights for others. He's been my inspiration for so long, although I didn't realize just how much when he came into my life. I was sixteen, had gotten my first pair of glasses, and was so convinced I was going blind, I started learning braille. My friend goggled at me, and pointed out her glasses were ten times as thick as mine and she wasn't afraid of going blind. I was still terrified. If I could still read, though, it would be alright.
And then Matt Murdock walked into my life. I knew the idea was ridiculous, although it turned out I was wrong. The truth is that no one may have quite the skill set that Murdock does, but this man has done amazing things with echolocation. Still, doesn't it sound more like science fiction than real life? I heard about Daredevil and got caught up with his stories, but believed that no blind person would be able to use any sort of echolocation effectively.
He saved me. I was despondent, sure that reading with braille would be too difficult for me, and I read Daredevil's and thought, 'okay, I can't do this but surely I can read and live if he can do this when he's blind.' And it turns out it wasn't just him being a blind superhero. No matter how much his life sucked, or people tried to pressure him into doing wrong things, he was too moral to do them. He always followed his conscience, no matter what. Or he might slip up, but he tried, he truly tried to do the right thing. So all of this means that I would have been crushed to have him truly suicidal. I have too deep a connection to him to continue on a series that takes him down that path.
There's also a story with a priest who can kick ass, and what evil is, and why it exists and what it's purpose is in this world. And while this was exciting and I adored it as well, it also has promised to reveal why no one else knows Murdock is Daredevil. And with 'purple' in the title to the next story arc, well...
I'm thinking this:
Remember, guys, the Purple Man - who is never named thus, or actually purple in the Jessica Jones Netflix series - first appeared in Daredevil and is a traditional DD villain. It's quite likely he's involved in this, although I didn't think he was able to do something on this level.
I guess I'll find out in another month.
*I want to point out that if you buy newer print issues of Marvel comics, you don't get the digital versions. Which I think sucks. I'm hoping to get more DDs on sale in the future, but I'll be buying the print issues first. I like having them in print, and while many people are making statements by no longer buying Marvel comics, it would hurt me more than them. I buy the comics for the stories, not just for the digital freebies, and I tend to prefer them in paper format. Which is why I'll be buying Lost Light in print and OP in digital: I don't care as much about OP.
Marvel is my main source of inspiration, strength and it's mostly what keeps me sane. So, yes, I'll continue to buy them in print. I do want to support the company, although I think it was a mistake to accustomed the fans to the freebies, then take them away. I've decided we're not entitled to the bundle, but we feel entitled to it, and therein lies the mistake, since the comics still cost the same price.
However, having come to this decision, I'm okay with what Marvel did. I'm disappointed, but I'm okay enough to keep buying the comics. I mean, how many paper comics do I have from pre-digital comics that I'd have to pay for again if I want them that way? Yup, I wasn't entitled to them free then, and I'm not entitled to them now.
So I'm going to warn people, but not be angry about it anymore.