"Pretty isn't everything, but sometimes ugly is."

- Val

 

Val & Nick are getting bullied at school and both have difficult home lives. Val creates a notebook with a "hate list." They add to it all the names of kids who bully them, and all the others in their lives that make them miserable. Val and Nick are both angry, but Val doesn't realize how angry and disturbed Nick is, until it's too late. How is she supposed to move past this and "get on with her life" like all the adults want her to?

This book revolves around the school shooting, the events that preceded it, and the events that followed. We see how Val fell in love with Nick, how devastated she was after the shooting, and how difficult her life was after.

Warning, this book may have you tearing up at times. It is a difficult read, especially considering the world we live in today. Brown did an amazing job portraying teenagers, the way they think, and the way they feel. So many overpowering emotions. So much Hate. Such a heartbreaking situation.

As difficult as this book was, it drew me in. I listened on audio and put it on every chance I got.

Recommended to:

High school students, their parents, and anyone who wants to read a touching YA book.

I didn't know how much I would be invested with this book when I started reading it. 

I was amazed at how strong Valerie became as the story progressed. Valeria didn't think her notebook that she dubbed the hate list would be part of the reason her boyfriend Nick killed people. The hate list was just that a list of things, subjects and people she hated. The bullies that liked to pick on her and Nick.  We all have a list like that somewhere either written down or in our head but we never act on it. Valeria never wanted to act on it but she had no clue that Nick was going to take things into his own hands. 

This is story is the aftermath of the tragedy that hit Valeria's school and how she has to learn that there was nothing she could do to stop Nick. She has to move on with her life and let the past go though she never has to forget it. 

I couldn't stand Valeria's parents no matter how hard I tried well until the end. Her mom I understood was in shocked with all that happened but yet she couldn't be there for her child to comfort her. Her dad was a whole other story. There was a question that Val asked her father, "Dad will you ever forgive me" and the answer he gave I was surprised at. I literally sat with my mouth opened like a fish because who gives that answer?

Dr. Hieler I liked him, he didn't sugar coat things with Val but he had her come up with things on her own if that makes sense. He didn't just talk mumbo jumbo with her he coaxed her out of her shell which she needed. He says a quote that I really liked. "Life isn't fair. A fair's a place where you eat corn dogs and ride the Ferris wheel." How true is that to be! 

I found myself at tears towards the end when Val is at her graduation with her friend! The one who no matter what people said or thought got to know Val. Stood up for her even when others believed Val was a part of the shooting. The project that was presented to the graduating class is one that I believe everyone needed to move on especially Val and it worked. 

There is so much more I can say about this book but I will stop my review here. If you want a read that will have you wondering if a person who had no clue of the horrors that someone she loved would inflict, and to watch her say goodbye but grow at the same time. Give this book a read. 

I liked this book. It's about the aftermath of a school shooting, where the shooter was actually the boyfriend of the female protagonist. The book's about her struggles and recovery, and her relationship in general with all the other characters.

Now, that sounds like an awesome theme to use for a book. Like, wow. It's a great idea. I'm just not sure it was implemented very well.

Although I enjoyed most of the characters, and in general this book was very well-written, there are a few flaws in general:

1. Valerie's boyfriend, Nick, is the shooter. She spends the entire book reminiscing about their time together with him and basically painting him in a positive light, thinking how "Nick wasn't really a bad guy" and about how he was pretty romantic, he liked Shakespeare...Look, girl, he SHOT SIX PEOPLE! He's a freaking serial killer! There's a good reason why everyone is trying to tell you he's not someone to be with...Although, I get that she was in love with him and didn't realise his true intentions. There's also no indication about why he started shooting people, but I can live with that.

2. Valerie's parents. Holy shit. They are the most despicable and hateful parents I have ever seen in any book by far! They constantly act as if SHE was the one who shot all those people, as if their daughter is a murderer. Valerie even tries to reach out to her dad for help and support...and he repays her by being fucking abusive and yelling in her face. They're fucking horrible. They shouldn't be allowed to have children...

3. Vaguely useless parts of the story. There was this mysterious woman called Bea who really helped with Valerie's development. Who the hell is Bea? I thought there wold be a plot twist about her...but they never SAY? Who is she?? Also, the reporter near the end, she contributes nothing much. Or Troy threatening Valerie with a gun. He never appears again? I don't mind too much about these points, but...it really seemed pointless.

4. The really fast ending. It was quite tearful and emotional, having the memorial service, and all is forgiven and forgotten...even though her parents are still freaking assholes for treating her like shit. And it ends just there? One chapter? Couldn't we have a bit more closure on that, huh?

Oh well. I think it was a good read overall, but I have read better. I mean, Never Ending is a book which is written much better and has much more emotion and brought real tears to my eyes. Not so much this.

Initial reaction: "Say Something" is a great follow-up narrative to Brown's "Hate List". Brief read, but very emotional subject matter.

Full review:

Though this was a very brief read, I still wanted to pick my heart up off the floor after reading "Say Something." David is the main character for this narrative - former friend to Valerie, also suffering from survivor's guilt in the aftermath of the school shooting of their junior year. The narrative flips back and forth between junior and senior year, narrating David's experiences with physical and verbal bullying, being helped in an unexpected place by the absolute last person he thought possible, and struggling between his guilt in silence and being able to "say something." (Interestingly enough, I had A Great Big World's "Say Something" running through my head as I read this novella.)

I thought this was written with the same maturity and heart as "Hate List", with decent pacing between the past and present. David's range of emotions in the before, during and aftermath of the shooting are palpable. I appreciated the narrative for what it offered, though I'll admit it was over about as soon as it began. It's definitely a narrative I'd recommend reading after "Hate List" to get the full impact and weight of the story.

Overall score: 4/5 stars.