"You belong to me now; in the end you will find your freedom through this ownership. In losing the ability to make your own decisions, in knowing that every single day that I choose to let you live might possibly be your last...in giving yourself to me completely, you will be free to heal yourself and see yourself whole. I am going to take the broken parts of you and mend them back together. I will do this for you if you give yourself to me.”
I finished this book 2 days ago, and am only now getting my bearings back to write this review, might I add, I have sat here for over an hour trying to make sense of my ravings about this book.
Due to the dark nature of this book and the fact it has been banned in the past, This book comes with a warning from Jaden, one you should read before picking up the book.
This is a classified as a dark erotic novel. It deals with some pretty heavy themes. It may trigger those who have experience sexual abuse, rape, violence, basically a shitty childhood or life in general. I must be kind of messed in the head, because I thought it was a touching story full of amazing imagery and people with hearts that continue to beat and seek the beauty in the world in spite of life grinding them into nothingness. Apparently some early reviewers have found mainly the darker elements, so consider this your warning, for what it's worth. This is not a fairy tale, this is what happens when the music ends and life goes on after the credits roll. This is about simply existing until you find yourself and write your own happily ever after, no matter what form it takes.
Now, with that being said, let's move on.
No stranger from violence, Dimitri endures abuse from his father through childhood, finally having enough at the age of 12 years old, he takes a step into the line of violence, lies, and murder, and he started it all off with murdering his father. Homeless and running the streets, hee was brought into the Russian Mafia, Bravata by Sergei, his once trusted mentor, and he quickly climbed his way up the ranks, earning himself the title, The Enforcer.
Within the walls of the Bravata, the rumors circulated that Dimitri was trying to take over, Sergei attempted to take him out, but fails, sending Dimitri into hiding to heal and plot his revenge.
It was worth waiting for. Sergei had many vulnerable spots; it was just a matter of deciding which one would hurt the most when hit.
Columbia, also not a stranger to an abusive life. Her mother is never around, leaving her with her alcoholic and abusive stepfather and a sister she is determined to protect at all costs.
Columbia is a cutter. She cuts to free herself from her life, free herself to feel in control of herself.
"The entire experience had an otherworldly feel and for the first time in months she felt in control of her environment."
While trying to save her community from a huge development, and to impress a guy, Columbia, and her activist's group decide the best course is to take things head on, to sneak into the penthouse of the man responsible for it all and demand some answers. Little did she realize, she was volunteering to go into the lair of a beast.
Dimitri, paranoid that everyone is out to get him, instantly views her as a threat, as someone who is sent to finally end him. He stops at nothing to get answers as to who sent her, slapping, punching and near choking her to death, Columbia fights back, determined to make him believe her, determined to survive.
When he finally believes her, he realizes he can't let her leave. Ever.
"I have decided that you will stay with me. I have never had a pet, but I think I will make an exception for a girl like you."
Things move really fast and before you know it, Columbia gives in to her attraction and these two are so intensely in need of each other, body and heart, finding each other's imperfections to be beautiful, finding that their needs, wants and desires of pain and domination were their "normal." A twisted and yet very sexy kind of insta-love.
"I am inside of you, I have your life in my hands. I could close my hand and break your neck, but I don't... I pleasure you instead. I bring you pleasure, I bring you life. Never forget that."
I know you all want to know, what about the sex? Extreme!
Dimitri's raw need to totally dominate and own Columbia is matched by her desires to be claimed by her beast in such panty-singeing details I found myself trying to read faster just to speed it up and get the release I was begging for from their intense connection.
"They came together, pain and blood and sweat and tears a testament to the bond they were forging in that moment. Something deeper than love, something bigger than either of them, and something so far beyond the realm of normal that it was almost mythical."
There is no in between for this book, it's Intense! Either you have incredible mind-blowing orgasmic highs, or you are left sitting there with your heart made into a smoothie courtesy of Jaden ;)
If you are a lover of the dark, twisted and, pain induced mind shattering orgasms, this is one to add to the TRB list, along with its follow-up, Perfectly Normal
“Don’t ever apologize for loving me so hard that it hurts. Every time you take me to the edge of death, and let me live, I know I am your truest love. I know you would die without me, and I cherish that with every beat of my heart."
★☆Public Service Announcement from Jaden Wilkes☆★
Life is not a fucking fairy tale. I am pleased you enjoyed my novel, the story of two people able to find one another in this dark and terrible world. Two people who worked through their pain and past hurts to find a way to overcome all that caused them injury. This is not how it works in real life. If any man hits you, abuses you, basically exhibits any of the sociopathological traits shown by pretty much all the men in this novel, run! Call the Domestic Violence hotline in your neck of the woods and get out. Your vagina is not magical, your love is not a healing elixir, and if he hurts you now, it will get worse. Write your own happily ever after and find yourself.
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