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text 2018-07-28 00:29
I'm Alive

[I haven't been on here because I've not been reading... >/<]

 

Anyways...just wanted to say hi and share something, sorry I've got nothing book related. [TW: Implied eating disorder mentioned]

 

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I broke up with a toxic relationship. This has put me on the path of a new journey, a magical adventure!
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I stopped talking about my health journey (as in my "weight loss" journey) because it got me to an obsessive point with working out, tracking every little detail and trying and failing to change my diet many, many times.
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It made my relationship with food worse. I would punish myself when I ate something "bad" by going on a fast, which meant not eating for a day or so. Sometimes I told myself, "okay, I will try to do a 3 day fast, or even a week fast." I seriously wanted to, but I never made it and ended up binge eating something "bad" again and starting the cycle of punishing myself all over again. The fast was seen as a good thing, a cleanse, so to speak.
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Not only that but beating myself up constantly while on my so-called journey. I would push myself to go beyond what I know my body could do on certain days because I didn't want to let others down by failing. I think that may be one reason why my chronic pain, depression, and anxiety are at an all-time high. I put too much pressure on my mind, body, and soul.
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Goodbye Diet Culture. We're never, ever getting back together. I'm striving to love myself and my body in all its stages. I am working toward not caring one lick what others think of me and my body. I'm working toward being positive, finding peace and tranquillity.
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Here are things I want to be routine & practice daily: Meditation, positive affirmations (even if that means talking to myself more), stretching, working up to yoga, remembering gratitude...etc.
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As for food, no food is bad, but I honestly know that because of my digestive problems and autoimmune, there are foods I should avoid. However, I won't beat myself up if I eat them. I'm trying to learn to eat intuitively and my body is not liking wheat, too much dairy, and meat. Not only do these things make me really sick/in pain or jump-start IBS, they just make me feel sluggish, heavy and generally unwell.
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I usually write dark poetry(which has its purpose), but I will leave you with something positive I wrote yesterday:
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Hear Me,
Power of Healing
Let me be free of anxiety

 

Hear Me,
Power of Healing
Let me be cleansed of dark energy

 

Hear Me,
Power of Healing
Cleanse my mind and my space

 

Cleanse, heal, peace
Cleanse, heal, peace
Cleanse, heal, peace

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If you read this, you are beautiful, you are worthy, the world needs you and I love you.

 

Blessed Be!

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review 2018-04-28 11:59
Toxic Waste (Troubled Society) - George H. Jenkins

 

Toxic Waste is a basic introductory primer aimed at middle school or higher students to instruct what toxic waste really is, what makes it toxic, and how it is bad for humans and animals. It touches on various forms of toxic waste: sewage, medical, radioactive, chemical and metal; where they come from, how they were handled in the past and the bad it has done to the environment. The book explains some modern forms of disposal: impoundment, injection wells, landfills, and ocean incineration as well as touching on some that are in development: using various forms of bacteria to render the toxins harmless and vitrification. The book also details what kids can do at home to make their abodes less toxic and how they can be more active in the community to help protect their local environs. For the age group the book is intended, I think it was educational and well written.

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review 2018-03-20 00:36
eARC: Toxic Desire (Released today)
Toxic Desire - Robin Lovett
Nem (Nemona) crash lands on a planet with Oten. That planet happens to be Fyrian. Oten has a history with humans and hates them. I thought with a good reason (they killed many of his kind/species). Together they have to survive on this planet. Except, this planet has an aphrodisiac atmosphere from the flora and fauna. I thought this sounded interesting.
I was disappointed. There's sex. Lots of it. It felt forced with two people who otherwise wouldn't be together. Or even want to be together. I didn't think there was much romance when it was all said and done. 

eARC courtesy of Entangled Publishing, LLC and NetGalley
Publishes on March 19th
 
 

 

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review 2018-02-25 15:56
2.7 Out Of 5 STARS for White Bodies by Jane Robins
White Bodies: An Addictive Psychological Thriller - Jane Robins

 

 

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~ABOUT THE BOOK~

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This chilling psychological suspense novel--think Strangers on a Train for the modern age--explores the dark side of love and the unbreakable ties that bind two sisters together. 

 

Felix and Tilda seem like the perfect couple: young and in love, a financier, and a beautiful up-and-coming starlet. But behind their flawless facade, not everything is as it seems. 

 

Callie, Tilda's unassuming twin, has watched her sister visibly shrink under Felix's domineering love. She has looked on silently as Tilda stopped working, nearly stopped eating, and turned into a neat freak, with mugs wrapped in Saran Wrap and suspicious syringes hidden in the bathroom trash. She knows about Felix's uncontrollable rages and has seen the bruises on the white skin of her sister's arms. 

 

Worried about the psychological hold that Felix seems to have over Tilda, Callie joins an Internet support group for victims of abuse and their friends. However, things spiral out of control and she starts to doubt her own judgment when one of her new acquaintances is killed by an abusive man. And then suddenly Felix dies--or was he murdered? 

 

A page-turning work of suspense that announces a stunning new voice in fiction, White Bodies will change the way you think about obsession, love, and the violence we inflict on one another--and ourselves.

 

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~MY QUICKIE REVIEW~

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Something about White Bodies just rubbed me the wrong way, maybe it's the narrator's voice/accent that got to me or the strangely weird thing that the MC did with her sister's hair, teeth, and other personal items (it's freakishly weird) or most likely it was both of those.  I just couldn't care about these characters or what befell them.  That twist at the end, was deviously clever, though.  It was the knowledge that there was going to be a serious twist at the end that kept me listening because I really wanted to DNF this.

 

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~MY RATING~

2.7/5 STARS - GRADE=C-

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~BREAKDOWN OF RATINGS~

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Plot~ 2.7/5

Main Characters~ 2.3/5

Secondary Characters~ 2.5/5

The Feels~ 2/5

Pacing~ 2.5/5

Addictiveness~ 2/5

Theme or Tone~ 2/5

Flow (Writing Style)~ 3/5

Backdrop (World Building)~ 3/5

Ending~ 3.2/5 Cliffhanger~ Nope.

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Book Cover~ Meh…not overly compelling.

Narration~ done by Camilla Arfwedson…My Grade=C-

Setting~ London, England

Source~ Audiobook (Library)

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review 2018-01-28 22:17
3 out of 5 Stars for this survival thriller...
When I Am Through with You - Stephanie Kuehn

~MY THOUGHTS~

 

Basically, I felt the entire plot is thrown off by the fact that this trip/hike that these high-school-age-teens go on was a little hard to swallow.  I mean…a hike in the mountains with overnight stays and only one teacher goes along…yeah, I don't think so.  This teacher was so clueless that he lets girls and boys sleep in the same tent, by themselves.  Not to mention the blatant pot smoking and drinking that is done by these teens…it didn't seem like they were trying to hide it at all.

 

A tale of survival more than a mystery, with less than likable characters, who are only capable of mostly horrible decisions and a sketchy plot filled with so many odd little intricacies that I was left feeling puzzled.  And yet, I was somehow still compelled to keep listening despite all these issues. Go figure.  

 

~MY RATING~3/5 STARS - GRADE=C

 

~BREAKDOWN OF RATINGS~

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Plot~ 3/5

Main Characters~ 3/5

Secondary Characters~ 2.5/5

The Feels~ 3.2/5

Pacing~ 4/5

Addictiveness~ 4/5

Theme or Tone~ 2.5/5

Flow (Writing Style)~ 4/5

Backdrop (World Building)~ 4.2/5

Originality~ 4/5

Ending~ 3.5/5  Cliffhanger~ I guess not…

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Book Cover~ I guess it's what drew me in…

Narration~  It's easy to like MacLeod Andrews, his voice is very palatable

Setting~  The Mountains in Northern California

Source~ Audiobook (Library)

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