***DNF 78%***I want to finish it but I don't feel like it now.

I'm very a little frustrated with this book. At first it was beautiful, that raw longing, that hidden love, that desperate and hopeless emptiness. The author was so good in her style of writing. The characters were so well defined and interesting they could tell a hundred stories together. There was magic and mystery there, and a pain for fulfilling the space with light where nothingness ruled. Seriously, I thought this would be one of those books.
I loved Landry, this openly-gay friend-since-forever of Justin he can't stop thinking about. Landry is cynical and mysterious, when he used to be cheerful and carefree. Justin is head over heels for Landry but he will never say it. So this is a bidirectional I-love-you-in-silence story and that sounded so good. And it definitely was.
To a certain point. Since the moment of the great revelation and the understandable arguments on things became ordinary again. Not bad, just like any other story. What enchanted me in the first pages disappeared, whatever it was. Instead, I almost had the vision of Landry's funeral. I felt Landry's death. He was not the distrustful and hardened youth anymore and I mourned for him. He was happy-go-lucky, boyish and stereotyped character I have seen a thousand times before. I didn't notice it at first but when the Big Misunderstanding (AKA moment for truth) came, I realized I was annoyed and tired of the book. I was getting my hopes too high when I began reading and I was developing the story in my head even before finishing it and I was disappointed that the author didn't agree with me.
So I'm very sorry for myself as I can see why so many of my friends liked it and it only add insult to injure because this could have been awesome for me, too. But it was not.
Note: Matéo/Téo does not exist. The Spanish name is with no accent: Mateo/Teo. On the other hand, I liked the word "zurdo" included here, and I love Antonio Banderas. So, not everything was lost.
Some photos I found when I was inspired:















