Is it my fault? Did I do what it was that you said? Was it me? I don't know, maybe. When I was little my mom died from breast cancer, lots of people I guess blamed me. I was about six years old. How do you get blamed for something you early knew about? I'm 17 now and still don't really understand death, let alone cancer. The first person to tell me about "my fault" was my sister, she blamed me for everything; my mom, making a mess, the reason why her kids were doing bad in school and/or at home. My life from 6-years-old to the 3rd grade was full of blame mostly by my sister. I hate my sister because of the blame and the pain she put me through, but the funny thing is that I love her kids, I basically raised them. If I were the reason for them failing, then that hurts my heart, but I know I'm not the one to blame, my sister is. Not their dad. Not their grandparents. And certainty not me. So, I blame my sister for the reason my oldest niece smokes at 15 because I know she didn't get that from me. I blame my sister for the reason why my youngest niece will grow up without a mom or a big sister or even an older girl to look up to for advice when she gets her menstruum or about any female acts she needs help understanding because I know if she was my daughter she would have the world and more. And I blame my sister for the reason why my nephew is not going to be so close to his dad because she kicked him out, not me.