Fire wants to burn,
water wants to flow,
air wants to rise,
earth wants to bind,
chaos wants to devour.

the truth is never horrible, only interesting.

Anyone who has actually been sad can tell you that there's nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression . Depression is like a heaviness that you can't ever escape . I crushes down on you , making even the smallest things like tying you shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty - mile hike uphill . Depression is a part of you ; it's in your bones and blood . If I know anything about it , this is what I know : it's impossible to escape .
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They would always be after me and I would always be running away from them. The feeling they gave was not just one of pursuit, but it also had a sexual nature to it. I always felt that they were chasing me and were after my butt, as I remember having a strange tingling sensation in that area.

In shamanic terms, everyone is believed to have power animals – guardians that empathise with us, guide us on the spiritual path, and protect us from harm. Each power animal increases our inner power by giving access to the wisdom of its kind, so that negative energy cannot influence our thoughts and actions. A horse guardian will impart ‘horse sense’, and endow us with some of the attributes of a horse; a dog guardian will give ‘dog sense’, and bestow some of the instincts of a dog. The animal
kingdom has a wealth of knowledge to offer and our animal guardian communicates this wisdom by drawing our attention to happenings around us … and repetition of such ‘happenings’ is their means of communication that will, eventually lead to
understanding.