Some people think it's all very cool to have a therapist.  Me, I'm not into this.

Will somebody please just give me a dog?

Title: Last Night I Sang To The Monster

Author: Benjamin Alire Sáenz

Publisher: Cinco Puntos Press

Publication Date: Sep 1st 2009

Page Numbers: 239 pages

Blurb

Zach is eighteen. He is bright and articulate. He's also an alcoholic and in rehab instead of high school, but he doesn't remember how he got there. He's not sure he wants to remember. Something bad must have happened. Something really, really bad. Remembering sucks and being alive - well, what's up with that?

I have it in my head that when we're born, God writes things down on our hearts. See, on some people's hearts he writes Happy and on some people's hearts he writes Sad and on some people's hearts he writes Crazy on some people's hearts he writes Genius and on some people's hearts he writes Angry and on some people's hearts he writes Winner and on some people's hearts he writes Loser. It's all like a game to him. Him.God. And it's all pretty much random. He takes out his pen and starts writing on our blank hearts. When it came to my turn, he wrote Sad. I don't like God very much. Apparently he doesn't like me very much either.

What I Thought

I found myself empty after read this book, the same effect as A.S King's Everybody Sees the Ants did to me. Even though the subject of pains were different, I thought they had the same hard life.

Why also many of us fucked up?

Zachariah Johnson Gonzales's life never be easy. His dad was an alcoholic, his mom depressed and his brother was a drug addict. Zach had a great dream, got A's in high school and went to the college. But what he found was he roomed at Cabin 9 bed 3 under "alcoholic" label. He knew something wrong with him, there was a monster inside himself. Zach met people like Mr. Garcia (his high-school teacher), Adam (his therapist) and Rafael (his fifty-three years old roommate). Those people helped him to find the sobriety for himself. Those people helped him to sang to the monster.

I'm thinking that maybe God gives us monsters for a reason.

Living is supposed to be more than a survival

Teenage addiction to alcohol and drugs probably the biggest problem in the world right now (I have no statistic data for that, it only based on lots of news about that). Family problem triggered it all. Yes, this is just my thought. But this book told me about that and it's a well written. 

And the thing that made hooked on this book was the curiosity about what exactly happened to Zach. I know that I don't know anything about teen alcoholic and the repeated words almost killing me (with word "cry" five times in one page from 70 in total and 35 times of "tear" in the whole book). This is a total drama, I must say. Like watching a noir midnight drama movie on local TV, with no back sounds and long silence. I won't say it bad, not at all. But it need lot of patience. The ending predictable but in a good way. I love the ending :)

"You're crying", I said
"It happens sometimes", he said
"Do we hurt you?"
"No. You moved me, Zach"

Opening Lines

Some people have dogs. Not me. I have a therapist. His name is Adam.

I'd rather have a dog.

Again, I have no words to describe how much I liked it. Benjamín Alire Sáenz is now one of my favorite authors.

He treats subjects like addiction, depression, ptsd with a delicacy and knowledge that makes the reading very compelling.

The book just flies, when you realize you're like 10 pages away from the end. It's impossible not to care for the characters and even identify a little with some of them in one way or another.

It's a lovely, deep story with real and daily subjects.

Benjamin Alire Sáenz - Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe   ★★★★★

Amy Lane - The winter courtship rituals of fur-bearing critters   ★★★

E.K. Blair - Freeing   ★★★

B.G Thomas - The boy who came in from the cold   ★★★

Alejandro Dolina - El libro del fantasma   ★★★

Michael Thomas Ford - Suicide notes   ★★★

Benjamin Alire Sáenz - Last night I sang to the monster   ★★★★★

Nick Wilgus - Shaking the sugar tree   ★★★★

I'm loving this book, and I hate that it's taking too long to finish it. I just want to sit and read it until I finish it but I have so many things to do.

It's the second book I read from this author and I must say, I love how he writes, and with this book especially, some times I feel like he's writing about me, I feel so identified with its characters.

It's really a shame that you can't find his books in Argentina, none of them, he's the kind of author I would like to read more, but I have to read his works in English and in my e-reader because it's impossible to find paperbacks copies in my country