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review 2017-12-15 23:22
Harm, Threat, Malice - The Rina Walker Series (Books #1-#3)
Harm - Hugh Fraser
Threat - Hugh Fraser
Malice - Hugh Fraser

Looking back at the books I have read this year, Hugh Fraser's three novels, Harm, Threat, and Malice, are without a doubt some of the most memorable reads: I cannot remember the last time I read a series that I had so many problems with, and that, at the same time, made me laugh so much and was so gripping that I had to read the entire series. 


I had problems with the first book, Harm, a few weeks ago, and in particular the depiction of a gritty side of London (and it hardly can get any grittier or more violent, and - in parts - more sickening). In fact, all three books are full of similar elements - except that the award for scenes that made me go "eeeww" has to go the Threat for its graphic displays

of murder and necrophilia

(spoiler show)


And yet! I had to read on. I loved Rina, our kick-ass main character. Considering she is an assassin, she's not as amoral as the her job title makes her out to be. She's motivated - so we are told - by the wish to take care of and make a better life for her kid sister. Having been thrown into a life of crime, she makes the best of her circumstances, which just happens to lead to ... more crime. But just as Rina and her friends are not all bad, the characters who are portrayed as fitting in with society are not really all that good. A part of the enjoyment of reading about Rina is reading about how she is able to hold a mirror up to respectability and show that it isn't all it is cracked up to be.


Of the three books, I liked Threat (book #2) best, even tho it did gross me out, and even tho the chapter set in Berlin was awful. 

In addition to Rina being contracted as a more colourful version of James Bond, it also showed more about Rina's relationships at home, and how she cares for her kid sister and her girlfriend. 


The third book, Malice, seems the most sedate of the three, but it may just be that I could not muster up that much interest in London gangsters. Malice certainly lacked the - what I call - "WTH-elements" of the first two books.


I hope there will be more books in the series, and I am probably going to read them if there are: the books are entertaining, and I loved reading them in between more serious tomes. Still, it is better to approach them the same way I would approach a Bond novel ... with a glass of wine and a pinch of salt.


Harm - 2.5*

Threat - 3.5*

Malice - 3*

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review 2017-11-21 19:18
Harm - Hugh Fraser

(Edit: I keep thinking about the book, so will probably end up editing the below later this week.)


A knock wakes me. It could be hours later. I arrived in the early afternoon and now there is no light edging the curtains as I switch on the bedside lamp and move to the door. I look through the spy hole. It is Randall, suitably distorted by the lens, unless some effect of altitude or cabin pressure during the flight has caused his face to bulge hideously. I contemplate with some pleasure the catastrophic effect this would have on this narcissist, with whom it is my misfortune to share responsibilities, for the immediate future.

This was such a weird book - let me explain:


Rina, our MC, is a hired assassin. The book starts with Rina on a mission in Acapulco in 1974. Things do not go as planned and escalate quickly. We learn that Rina is one kick-ass character.


In the next chapter we get travel back to a slum in London in 1954. The estate is run by gangs who extort rent money from the tenants. We again meet Rina as a teenager, living in squalor with an alcoholic mother and two younger siblings. Living conditions are dire. People are horrible. The scale of neglect and abuse is off the scale.


From there on we get alternating chapters about the main plot - Rina's misadventure in Mexico - and the sub-plot - Rina's background story.


Structurally, the book worked well for me. I liked the switching back and forth between locations and stories, I liked the fast pace, I even didn't mind the constant first person present tense narration (I know that some people will hate this). 


The book is gripping throughout and very, very graphic. This also worked for me as a reader. 


What absolutely did not work for me was the amount of sexual violence in this book, mostly in repetitive descriptions, and the fact that rape was used as a plot device. That just never works for me.  


What made the book really weird was the fact that this was not written by Octavia Butler or Margaret Atwood. I mean I had serious flashbacks to reading Parable of the Sower and literally all Atwood novels I have ever read bar two - but especially the MaddAdam books.

There was not a single decent male character in sight. None. At all. So weird.


Not that the female characters were all that great, but they were more fleshed out at least, but then there was a bit more focus on the female characters as the story also featured a couple of lesbian romance plots. 

Ok, with everything else going on this book, that actually made me laugh as I did not see that coming. Still, so weird. 


Still, with all its problems, I found it hard to put the book down. Partly because I was stumped by the book. I mean, it reminded me so much of Butler and Atwood but it obviously seemed to lack the feminist/political message. Or did I just miss it because I obviously could not see beyond who the author of the book was?

On the other hand, it reminded me of The Bourne Identity. It was fast-paced and action-packed and it worked as just that - a quick read that was kind of entertaining, really weird, and did not require me to engage critical thinking too much. 


But at the end of it all, the overwhelming thought I am left with is: WTF did I just read??!!


Harm was Hugh Fraser's first book. According to his bio, Fraser had the plot of the book mapped out before he embarked on a short creative writing course to finish the book. I think it shows somewhat as the choice of narration may not have been the most advantageous (first person present tense does not work all that well for most readers), but it did add to the immediacy of the narration. He's written two sequels to Harm and I am still really curious about them. But I can't tell whether I am curious about them because of the oddness of Harm or because I really dig Hugh Fraser as an actor (not just as Hastings, btw.).

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text 2017-11-18 16:43
16 Tasks of the Festive Season - Square #14: December 12th - 24th - Las Posadas
Harm - Hugh Fraser

Question: For the book task for Las Posadas, does the entire book need to be set in Mexico?


I have just started Hugh Fraser's (yup, THE Hugh Fraser - as in "Hastings") first novel, and it is set in Mexico and the UK from what I can tell.


It's a kinda gritty crime noir type of thing ... which has already had me chuckle a couple of times, as the MC, a woman assassin, seems pretty kick-ass.


I had no idea Fraser wrote books (there are three in this series so far apparently) until I checked his Twitter profile a couple of days ago. Has anyone read any of them?


Book themes for Las Posadas:  Read a book dealing with visits by family or friends, or set in Mexico, –OR– with a poinsettia on the cover. –OR– a story where the main character is stranded without a place to stay, or find themselves in a 'no room at the Inn’ situation.



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review 2017-09-27 00:40
Damage - Eve Ainsworth Damage - Eve Ainsworth

Trigger warning: Self-harm. Uh, a lot of self-harm. Almost every chapter has some explicit scene about self-harm, I'm not even kidding here.


This book was terrible. I've read Eve Ainworth's Seven Days, and that was bad too, but this one manages to be worse. I mean, when I saw that the book would be talking about self-harm and stuff, I was really excited to see how it would handle it. I thought it might actually turn out to be interesting to read.


Which it was, yes - the self-harm itself is dealt with appropriately and I can appreciate that. The author certainly did her research in that regards. However, most of the book is unreadable due to one fatal oversight, and it is this.


The main character has an atrocious personality, bitches at everyone, is judgmental, a complete hypocrite, treats her entire family like shit, is selfish to no end, and is overall a really shitty person and I really didn't care about her life.


I mean come on. To start off with, the book was just depressing. Really depressing, even before any mention of self-harm came into it. I could not STAND Gabi and started skim-reading parts where she started doing her internal monologuing (which she did a LOT) because she was just moping about and whining about her grandpa.


Everytime her mum turned up, I would tense up, because Gabi spends most of the book screaming at her mum or fighting with her, even though it's obvious that her mum is actually trying to help or repair the rift between them. Does Gabi notice this? Oh, no. She just continues to be this really shitty daughter and I cannot believe that the author would expect us to root for her.


The blurb on the back of the book says something like "Confident, popular Gabi has a a secret, a secret so terrible she can't her family, or her best friend" - okay let me just stop you there. I never got the feeling that Gabi confident or popular. She's constantly depressed all the time and I never got the impression that she was a "popular girl" or anything...but whatever.


The actual self-harm scenes were done well and conveyed a lot of emotion. Gabi started cutting herself every other chapter and going on similar self-harm websites, and then she remembers that there was this other girl she used to know who was always cutting herself. What does she do? Oh, she goes up to her and calls her "a stupid bitch"...yeah, thanks Gabi, you're really increasing my respect for you here.


At the end of every chapter, you get a flashback of Gabi's memories with her grandfather. Actually, I started to warm to him. I enjoyed reading about him. He was a character that seemed well-thought out and didn't make me want to throw up everytime he spoke. Unfortunately, he starts to become pretty shitty towards the end of the book, so that's that part gone and wasted.


I really didn't like any of the characters. Gabi's friends didn't appeal to me. There's a guy who she ends up with and he made no impact on me whatsoever. Oh, and there's a fucking love triangle between two guys, neither of whom I care about. I cared a little about her best friend, with whom she almost never opens up at all.


Oh, and near the end, one of Gabi's friends mentions to her that yes, we knows you've been self-harming, we can SEE the marks on your skin whilst you're skating. So she's completely failed in covering it up, too.


If I was a bit younger, I might have said that Gabi acts like a total shithead because she's a "typical teenager" - well, that's not quite true. She's a bit TOO stereotypical. I know that not all teenagers act like this, but she just whines and bitches at her mum and is just so negative all the time! It was intolerable.


Now, the book actually improves in the last couple of chapters or so. We learn that the real reason why Gabi is like this is because she feels responsible for the death of a loved one. Okay, thanks for clearing that up, because before then it literally felt like she was just really really sad about her grandpa.


It was actually readable in that last chapter because her mother opens up to her, and for once Gabi isn't screaming her head off at her and they're actually having a proper conversation. No idea if that will last. It almost felt out of character because she'd spent the entire book hating her mother. Her mum would notice her scars and be concerned about her but no, our protag just throws it back in her face and even does her physical arm in one chapter.


Although it did improve at the last second, it's really not enough to save this book. Yes, it told us quite a bit about self-harm, but our protag was such an awful person that I honestly felt dissuaded from reading this at all. There are better ways to do this. Focus on the tragedy as well as the mentality of the individual. The love triangle was half-assed too.


All in all, I can't give this more than a 2/5. God, this was a trainwreck.

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review 2017-01-22 21:16
So Simple With Such A Big Return
Power of Breath: The art of breathing well for harmony, happiness, and health - Swami Saradananda

Breathing is the basic function we can control. Breathing well can change your thinking, physical abilities and more. I loved the connection taught, between breath, body and mind. The yoga addition was a bonus I did not expect. I practiced several of the techniques daily and found and immediate change in my perception to the world around me. I didn't feel so on edge, so negative, I had a sense of calm acceptance that was good. I felt really good. I can't wait to see where I can go from here.
Easy simple techniques
Uncomplicated yoga
Small time investment

Thank you NetGalley for the ARC

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