I sure know I am rofl. After three gruelling months, I'm done completely. I think I've done pretty well for myself though, considering I've been playing catch-up all this time since I was sick on my study break week off classes. Boy, all those sleepless nights and that jazz has really caught up with me in the pass few weeks to be honest.

Unfortunately I don't really have all that much time to breath in terms of actually being "done". I start work tomorrow...or rather I don't know if I do but I do go in tomorrow to fill in the paperwork and whatnot. 

Really, all I'd really ask is for a week or so off just to sleep and to write and take my life back in order. I've literally been a machine all these months and quite frankly I think my brain has forgot to function in the "normal" sense that I need it to be rofl. Since I don't really have that luxury, I fear my lack of sleep is going to get me into trouble or something. But who knows at this point in time.

On the other hand, I can freely attempt to regain my writing mood coupled with my love for reading again without worrying about assignments and essays tormenting me for hours endlessly. Yup, that's right, I'm going to be working on my various writing projects throughout this summer. Hopefully I have something to show for by the end of it.

Oh, and before I forget. Last Thursday I just got the request for an interview, meaning I passed the test for this job I really want! It's so exciting!! However, I don't know when I'll be interviewed. They stated it will happen anytime in May-July. So by August maybe or rather September, I'm hoping I'll have the job. ^_^

Anyways, I have to get going, not too much of my day is left considering I have to get up at 5am or so to be at work for 9am. o_e;

Gah, I hate feeling so conflicted. It's draining. Today just really given me a beating on so many levels. It's utterly ridiculous. Between being sick to my stomach to the point I nearly passed out on the street to getting lost on my way to write my job test. Honestly there's been so many highs and lows that I just asdfghjkl. And now more drama. I just don't get it anymore. I try to be fair but I've realized knowing the whole story is better. Should have just stuck to my motto. *sighs*

So now I'm just bowing out of any drama now of that subject. Because honestly its not fair to me or my stomach (I get in SUCH big knots about it and all that ugly stuff). And I'm just tired of it.

On another note, I'm rather hopeful for the possibility of being called back for an interview for that position I wrote the test for, but who knows. At least my getting lost to the building hopefully won't go unrewarded? And hopefully my gut instincts triumph again lol. I'll keep you in the loop everyone once I know. :DDD

And that exam that I didn't really have ANY time to study for? Well, I think I did quite alright on it. I was surprised. And thankful, considering I was seriously not in the mood for it on several accounts AND had to get up at 6am on a Saturday AND had a problem this morning (upset stomach due to nerves)...I'm very pleased by the turn of events rofl.

Now just have an essay to finish for Monday (I know, not too much time left there gurl rofl) and my final exam which is on the 22nd but it is a take-home that I'll receive Tuesday.

I still can't believe I'm nearly done with university completely. It's rather sad. Hell, I was getting teary-eyed just walking around campus. I plan to visit again, since it provides rather lovely inspiration for my stories--well anywhere does really. :3

Until next time, I have an essay to write in the meantime, but I'll be posting snippets of my novella ChosenOne perhaps in the next few days maybe once I have time. o: 

I love how MIA I've been on here (or anywhere in general). It honestly sucks. But it's my last year and semester of university. And to be honest, I don't get much time to do my work during the week (I've been actually doing homework IN CLASS to make up for time, don't copy me please, I'm just terrible... >_<; ). Ironically this is without working at a job either. And yet I'm still somehow behind....just really now? =_="

Although I think I've just reached a point where I haven't truly taken a break or a breather from this stuff. I'm like always working on them no matter what I'm doing. I don't enjoy doing other things because these assignments and essays are always on my mind. Hell, it makes it even harder for me to sleep, much less focus on them hence i get distracted easily somewhat. It's utterly annoying really. Almost like I sink into a state that makes me irritated by anything that just adds to my aggravated state of mind in the moment.

On another note, I will be singing high praise once I'm free and will likely cry. And eager, eager to resume my designs on my stories as well as get a job and just work the summer away (I'd love one that won't impact my writing too much). But most of all, I'd love to go somewhere and just de-stress myself completely.

I know I don't talk a lot about my own problems or personal life or anything...mostly because I feel like I'm just complaining or whatever, but honestly, I feel as if I do more than I'm given credit for, and there's huge amounts of pressure on whatever it'd be that I know I'll never amount to what people expect of me.

I'm only human.

And this human honestly wants a break from reality.

Then again doesn't everyone?

If you guessed the weekend or Friday or whatever else you call freedom, then you are indeed correct!

Just a quick update of some sort (and make it look like I'm actually doing SOMETHING with this thing lmao). Gosh, I'm so terrible and lazy with this lol. Regardless, still fending off essays, so no luck writing on my stories in the meantime unfortunately. >_<;

I also received an email back from a job position I really wanted the other day. I have to write a test for it and pass in order to get the in-person interview. Unfortunately its the same date and time as one of my final exams. So I'm trying to get around it. And today I found out who to go to for this mess. Unfortunately I have to wait until next week to find out the verdict. What he'll say on regards of my deferring my exam or not is entirely up to him. Hopefully all goes well, because this position would be nice to get and one of my dream jobs or rather what I've love for a dream job--surrounded by books galore!

Also to all the awesome people that are following me, thank you so much! <3

Other than that, I really have nothing much to say yet, sorry... x:

Here's a kitty for your troubles!

Well, having trouble with my "Currently Reading List" apparently (some books have been finished like MONTHS ago) but other than that, I think I'm kind of getting the hang of this. Although I should fiddle with this more once I have the time. So now going back to my essays asdfghjkl.