Father Figure by Kichiku Neko & TogaQ
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

5 Stars for being such a Unique Taboo Read that Scrambles My Senses

Blood relation, just how important is that? How strong could that bond be? Is it possible to love a total stranger? Especially if that stranger shared an unbreakable bond with you?

Gabriel developed an unhealthy obsession with a man, a stranger he had hoped to get to know better and ultimately be loved by. Uriel was the father he had longed for ever since he was a child. He was bitter when he found out Uriel has a happy little family of his own now and a favored son two years his junior upon leaving his mom behind. He hated the other woman who took away what should have been his and his alone. No one should compete with him for Uriel's attention and affection. Uriel owed him that. And he will make sure his father understands it even if he has to hurt him in order for him to learn. Afterall as the saying goes "spare the rod, spoil the child", an ironic phrase for them but it is one Gabriel deemed as the right recourse to steer his Father's affection towards him.

What transpired between this pair of long-lost father and son upon their ill-fated meeting was supremely taboo and disturbing enough to make you feel so wrong and conflicted for even reading it, yet you will find it hard to stop. You just had to know why, why Gabriel did what he did, and to find out what would Uriel do to salvage both of them from any further destruction? Do we really owe that much to our own child? How much are we willing to sacrifice for own flesh and blood?

Love can be the most beautiful thing in this world. Love can also be the ugliest thing when directed by a distorted perception. Love can be hellish. To a man like Gabriel, to love is to possess wholly, to claim full ownership, to be kept close by his side irregardless of consequences. I am still unsure if all those vile acts Gabriel subjected on Uriel is even remotely redeemable.

Since the story is narrated all by the perpetrator himself, we would get to feel his every volatile emotion and his twisted reasoning. At times, the intensity of his insanity makes me shudder with disbelief and horror. Books of such nature fascinates me till no ends. Being in the mind of a delusional, unstable person gives our mind such a great workout. Needless to say, there's never a dull moment in this book. My adrenaline was kept high throughout the reading.

I must say, the angst in this story is just superb. It has precisely the right amount to keep me satisfied and on a constant emotional high.

Okay, to be on the blunt side, this is a taboo book and it is ILLUSTRATED. I repeat, IT IS ILLUSTRATED. The taboo acts are ILLUSTRATED. There, I got it off my chest and feeling much better already. I can assure you that TogaQ's artwork is to die for and the illustrations are aptly applied. It heighten the experience and shake up our emotion. If you wanna know, there are a total of 19 illustrations in this book. I wish I could show some of it here but I had to refrain from spoiling the story and lessening the shock effect. Plus I would hate to be flagged by those well-meaning-GR-police. I must clarify that not all of the illustrations are smutty, there are a couple of those safe-for-work types too.

If you are those who aren't easily disturbed by taboo reads that contains high level of incest with a dose of dark psychological and criminal theme, then this book should be a winner for you. Angst addict would definitely adore it too. As for those looking for sweet romance.. please look elsewhere. The only romance to be found here is an utterly twisted one.

On account of how much this story had lodged itself deep within me, a 5 stars rating is a given thing. In fact, most books that graces my 5 stars shelf are those that had left its indelible mark on me.


Side note to all: For sake of world peace and personal safety; NEVER EVER have unprotected sex, NEVER EVER forsake your own children. OR you might just find yourself reliving Uriel's nightmare.

[ I ran my fingers through his hair; it was soft. There was a kind of excitement that went through me then that felt sexual. This man was my father. He used to belong to someone else and now he belonged to me. ]

BOOK DETAILS:

Title: Father Figure
Author: Kichiku Neko (Author), TogaQ (Illustrator)
Publication Date: November 2011
Publisher: Guilt|Pleasure (Doujinshi Circle)
Type: Illustrated Novel - approximately 31,000 words, 19 illustrations
Genre:M/M, Gay, Taboo, Incest, Dominance-Submission, Noncon, Psychological Thriller, Drama
Tags/Keywords: gay, incest, taboo, dominance-submission, non-consensual, thriller, psychological, maledom, domineering male, rape, corporal punishment, caning, bodily harm, injury, murder, restraints, collar, leash, chain, hand-job, blow-job, oral sex, anal sex, rough sex, kidnap, captive, captivity, confinement, unstable mind, psychological disorder, mental disorder, obsession, stalker, stalking, voyeurism

Description:
A deep obsession with his estranged father leads Gabriel down a dangerous, twisted path.

This is an Illustrated Novel NOT a manga or graphic novel. It contains 19 illustration by TogaQ and the story was written by Kichiku Neko.



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Crazy by Cari Waites
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Read from November 17 to 18, 2013 — I own a copy

Braingasmic 5 Stars!

Braingasm feels so divine. It's SO gud, I shivers with delight.




The story leads you into a dreamscape of an unstable mind, you will never really know which is real and which is just a figment of a confounded mind.

The author has the ability to draw her readers into her character's surrounding and make them feel what they felt. Her words are focused and never excessive, just the right amount to nudge us along.

I could really feel the sense of angst and powerlessness displayed by Drew the protagonist, it gave me such thrills and lovely goosebumps. Makes my heart squeeze with just the right amount of empathy not interfering with my deviant side wishing for more distressing situations for Drew.

If rape and suicide is a trigger for you, be forewarned then. The suicide attempt scene was almost poetic the way it was presented. On the other hand, the rape scene was quite intense and real. Made me wanted to gouge the perpetrator's eyes out, step on it, squish it to pulp.

In short, this book is DEFINITELY for me. Half the time while reading it, I was fretting over when that kinky straitjacket on that cover is going to ever come into play or will it not be at all? Gasp, I would have been devastated if the latter was the case. You see, I have an obsession with bondage, the stricter it is the better it was for me. I was saved from my impending depression when Ms. Waites delivers a highly stimulating straitjacket bondage sex scene combine with a sling harness to boot! Oh, how I love her.

So okay with the kinky stuff, the next point which appeals to me was the Asylum/Mental hospital setting which incidentally was another fascination of mine too.

Hence, how could I not love this book? It has such an appealing and potent combination with just the right formulation for me:

[Asylum] + [Straitjacket] + [Drugging] + [Noncon/Dubcon] + [Sinister Doctor] = Lovely amount of Angst and Powerlessness
- End Result: a one way ticket to Cloud9 forever

Actually, what further cemented a 5 stars rating was the ending. It was non-stereotypical as it dares to be different yet staying true to the story and its theme.

Ms. Waites has once again delivered another memorable piece of dark erotica. Her previous work, Gamble Everything was also a fine example of quality dark erotica. To me, Ms. Waites has successfully captured the essence of dark erotica; It's arousing yet so wrong on many levels.

It is rare to find good dark erotica that stays true to its theme. Most would just plaster on a HEA/HFN no matter how unnatural it was for the story and worst off, some turned downright fluffy at the end! There are also those with the misconception that being dark and erotic means torture porn all the way. I find it hard to be aroused when the other party isn't the least bit enjoying it that's why I find forced seduction to be the best balance.

If you love dark, all-shades-of-wrong kind of noncon cum borderline dubcon stories, this is for you.

They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me.

Drew thinks he isn't crazy just outvoted by those around him even his own parents. I'll let you be the judge of it.





BOOK DETAILS:

Title: Crazy
Author: Cari Waites
Publication Date: November 15th, 2013
Type: Short story, 8,370 words (approximate)
Genre: M/M, Gay, Erotica, Contemporary, BDSM, Dominance-Submission, Noncon/Dubcon
Tags/Keywords: gay, erotica, rough sex, bondage, bdsm, noncon, dubcon, dominance-submission, hand-job, blow-job, maledom, humiliation and degradation, virgin, rape, suicide attempt, straitjacket, sling harness, cuff-restraints, drugging, taboo, asylum, mental hospital, mental-illness, psychological disorder, young man, anal sex, oral sex, handjob, mindfuck, humiliation-degradation, realistic, reluctant-forced, restricted-freedom, erotic, darkfics, forced-seduction, captivity-confinement, angst

Description:
Drew's not crazy. The dreams he has at night of his doctor restraining and dominating him can't be true. Just because he's a patient in a mental health facility doesn't mean he's crazy. Right?

This 8200 word short contains explicit content, including: m/m, dubious consent, oral and anal sex. All characters are aged over 18 years.


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Tentacle Pool - Melanie Tushmore

Tentacle Pool

by Melanie Tushmore

My Review/Comments:

I enjoyed this one. Just wish it had been a little bit longer! :)

Sidian was really fascinating, and I would have liked to have known more about him. I also would have liked for the underwater scene to be longer. There's just something so sexy about sex underwater, while someone else breathes for you. :P

The ending made me chuckle, but I wonder what happens later? After they leave the island, will Aire never see him again unless he returns to the island? Is Sidian strictly a freshwater creature, or can he survive in the ocean? Could he even get to the ocean if he wanted to? And would he even do that for a mortal?

This is really just an erotic encounter, not romance, but I guess I'm always looking for the romantic, happily-ever-after side of things. :P

Title: Prisoner 374215

Author: Angel Martinez

Genre: M/M Dystopian Science Fiction Romance

Tags: futuristic, dystopia, security, guard, prison-captivity, captive, prisoner, dark, hurt-comfort, military, oppression, mind-control, brainwash, reconditioning, torture, rape, experiment subject, violence, trauma, restraints-bondage

Length: 10,360 words (Short story)

Publisher: M/M Romance Group @ Goodreads, Published on June 2nd, 2013 (A part of Love Has No Boundaries (LHNB) series)

Duration: Read from June 19 to 21, 2013, read count: 1

3 stars because I do liked it.

The story begins with a very well written oppressive atmosphere then took a sudden detour into fluffy land when we get to about 20 to 25% of it. After that, I got all kinds of warm and fuzzies. I still like it tho. I mean, who doesn't love that kind of comfort after all the hurt? Furthermore, gaining such a dependable pillar of support when you are at your weakest and bleakest point? I would have fallen head over heels over anyone kind enough to share a smile with me when I am in such a futile existence.

I do enjoyed the background story of how Prisoner 374215 ended up as a live experiment. The author did really well laying out the groundwork and weaving that dystopian world whilst not losing focus of the main story and its characters. That is not an easy feat especially in view of the low word count this story aimed for.

So kudos to the author. Not only did she managed to answer the prompt perfectly, she had also managed to evoke her reader's empathy for the characters even if it is just a short story.

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