logo
Wrong email address or username
Wrong email address or username
Incorrect verification code
back to top
Search tags: emotional-abuse
Load new posts () and activity
Like Reblog Comment
show activity (+)
review 2017-03-23 01:53
The Abuse of Ashley Collins - Jon Athan

 

I don’t  know why I ever chose to torture myself and willingly read A CHILD CALLED IT,  but Dave Pelzer broke something inside me – I haven’t been right since.  Knowing that, you’d think I’d have learned a lesson, (yeah, I know… I’m audibly laughing right now, too).  Nope. Years after ‘ACCI’ I decided that I wanted to read THE GIRL NEXT DOOR, and I let Jack Ketchum walk right in and start poking at the wound that David Pelzer left with a big, pointy stick.  I think it was the masochist in me who invited Mendal W. Johnson to drop by and sucker-punch my PTSD in the back of the head.  As far as the ‘Let’s Go Play At The Adams fiction/non-fiction debate’ goes – I’m sticking with IT’S FICTION, but I’m sure all the atrocities have been committed, many times, and on many different Barbaras. 
Like LGPATATHE ABUSE OF ASHLEY COLLINS is not a true story – but it very well could be. Watching the decreasing sanity, and the elevating brutality of Ashley’s parents demonstrates just how fast situations can escalate. One little poke at the wrong moment, and all control is lost – you can’t come back from certain things.

       

THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION. It is disturbing, and hard to read at times, but the author is not exploiting issues to gain shock value for a horror story. Jon Athan comes at the story from every possible angle, from every p.o.v., and sheds light on problems that most families would keep hidden in the dark. Let me misquote one of my favorite movies before you start reading…

WARNING: This book contains scenes of graphic violence, including violence towards children. This book is about abuse—verbal, physical, and emotional. This book does not feature any explicit sex scenes, but it does discuss sexual abuse. This book is not intended for those easily offended or appalled.

Ashley Collins, a sixteen-year-old girl, has severe behavior issues. She regularly fights with her parents, Logan and Jane. When the fights become personal and physical, Logan and Jane decide to take matters into their own hands. They chain their daughter in the basement and abuse her in an attempt to rescue her from her bad behavior… while delving into their own deviance and depravity.

This is a story of family and abuse. This is a story of violence and discipline. This is the abuse of Ashley Collins.

Jon Athan, author of A Family of Violence, brings you an uncompromising vision of human horror. Can the cycle of abuse be broken?

 

Find The Abuse of Ashley Collins on Goodreads, Amazon, and it’s available through the KU program.

Connect with the author via Twitter – @Jonny_Athan, Facebook,  through the officialJon Athan Website, or his author pages on Goodreads, BookLikes, LibraryThing  &Amazon. You can email him directly at: info@jon-athan.com, or head on over to the West Coast and start stalking him the old fashioned way!

 

* I'm really glad that you didn't shelf the idea/book, and I think that THE ABUSE OF ASHLEY COLLINS is a better title than your original title. In fact, I think I may have misinterpreted 'A GENERATION OF ABUSE' when I first read it. I was going over my notes and highlights for the review when it clicked - the cycle of abuse - "ahh... OK".

* You made a comment on the 'Join the mailing list' page, and if I WASN'T searching for the things that you mentioned, I sure am now!! It may be a 'private matter', but... we're friends, right? :) IDEA!! If you collect all of the police files, doctor notes, patient files, and maybe even a "found" journal of Ashley's - it could sell as a companion book to THE ABUSE OF ASHLEY COLLINS.

* Something you said (after the story, before 'Dear Reader') made me [inappropriately] giggle for a second - (you know... that super disturbed, "I know I'm going to Hell", "Don't judge me!" giggle? No? Ever laugh at a funeral? Um... OK. Nvmnd).

"[...] Sure, there were a few things that may seem outlandish, especially towards the end [...]"


Well... there was something on the news just a few days ago -

"On Monday, March 6th, 2017 - North Carolina authorities arrived on the scene to witness 18 year old suspect, Oliver Funes Oliver Funes Machado, exit the family home "carrying a knife in one hand and a severed human head in the other."
Authorities found what was left of her body between the kitchen and living room. Funes-Machado had also told the dispatcher his 4-year-old and 2-year-old siblings were in the house. He said his father was not home.
The younger sisters were not hurt, and a teenage brother was at school."


Peace, Love & Necrophilia ♥
 ~  šhαd⊕ω gïrレ

 

(spoiler show)

 

Like Reblog Comment
show activity (+)
review 2017-01-15 18:39
Review: "Violated" by Jamie Fessenden
Violated - Jamie Fessenden

"I like you, Russ. A lot. You’re a great guy, and you deserve to be with somebody who can hold you and make love to you—"

Russ held up a hand to quiet him. "Sorry. I think I got some dog hair clogging up my ear or something. That whole last sentence was just ‘blah, blah, blah.’ I didn’t hear anything after ‘I like you, Russ. A lot.’"

Derek stared at him for a long moment. Then a shy smile slowly crept across his face. "That’s okay. I didn’t really say anything after that."

 

Trigger warning: on-page sexual abuse & male rape!

 

Judging from the serious topic and the blurb, I was prepared to be left with my heart crushed when I finished this book. And I'm not gonna lie, this was NOT an easy read. Far from it.

 

But even though Derek's sufferings made me angry, raging, feeling frustrated and outraged most of the time, I've never once felt actually depressed or hopeless.

 

And that's because of two things:

 

1. RUSS

 

Sweet, patient, supporting and comforting Russ. Russ, who was just desperately looking for love and a serious relationship, for "a nice guy who likes dogs and cuddling". Russ, who couldn't have stepped into Derek's life at a more convenient time. Russ, who took my heart by storm and instantly became one of my all-time favorite characters ever.

 

 

2. Jamie Fessenden's writing

 

The writing was very strong, and it handled the difficult subject of male rape and its fallout very well, with a lot of respect and dignity. There was just the right balance between the "hurt" and the "comfort" parts of the story. It was a satisfying and great read overall. Well done, Mr. Fessenden. Very well done, indeed.

 

 

So if you're mentally prepared for a tough and challenging read with a sensitive subject, you should give this book a chance. The author handled the heavy topic of male rape realistically and respectfully, but there were also enough sweet, tender and romantic moments between Derek and Russ to make your heart still go all "Awwww!".

 

This is an outstanding book. An important book. A book that will be staying with me for a long time. It gets a million stars from me.

 

 

Highly, highly recommended!

 

Thanks to Julie for the BR!

Like Reblog Comment
show activity (+)
review 2016-12-05 17:28
Review: "Empty Net" (Scoring Chances, #4) by Avon Gale
Empty Net - Avon Gale

"For the first time in his whole life, Laurent played the game out of love instead of hate. But it wasn’t his love of hockey that kept him focused in net.

Every time a puck came toward him and he made a save, he thought, “This is for Isaac.”

 

This was the best book in this series for me. Mostly because there wasn't a dumbass MC around this time.

 

And yet, I once again couldn't really connect to either of the MCs. And that's mostly due to the fact that when it comes to the important parts, the writing is more "telling than showing", like Isaac's discovery of Laurent's eating disorder.

 

Also, this once again felt more like a story about two 17-year-olds rather than two guys in their mid-twenties. I honestly think I would have enjoyed this series WAY more if it would have been set in college, and not in a professional hockey league.

 

All in all, this was just another "Ok" read for me. I won't hold my breath for the fifth book though.

Like Reblog Comment
show activity (+)
review SPOILER ALERT! 2016-10-25 19:04
Review: "Afterimage" (In the Company of Shadows, #2) by Sonny & Ais
Afterimage - Ais,Santino Hassell

"So why aren't the two of you gay together anymore?"

~Emilio~

 

*** SPOILER ALERT! ***

*** THIS IS NOT A DRILL! ***

*** SPOILER ALERT! ***

 

Ok, NOW we're fucking talking!

 

While I stand by my (very correct) opinion on "Evenfall" (too long, too repetitive, too many unnecessary details/events/chapters), you'll just have to trust me on this:

 

"Afterimage" surpasses its predecessor in every way!

 

 

Part of my struggle with this series is that just when I had decided that maybe it might not be for me, it had to go and give me one of the most emotional reads in months that left me completely satisfied. But on the other hand? I'M AN EMOTIONAL MESS RIGHT NOW.

 

 

The writing was noticeably tighter and faster-paced than in the first book, and it managed to convince me that this series really is as good as everyone claims it is.

 

 

The reason why “Afterimage” was so incredible is that it gave me all the angst, emotions and ugly tears while also remaining to give me a totally fascinating view into not just one (deeply damaged) character's head, but two.

 

 

I was so frustrated at times with Boyd and Sin's actions and behavior that I screamed. I SCREAMED.

 

That idiotic thing with Ann, Sin? And your reasons for it? That was some rude ‘tude, dude. Especially when I'm pretty sure that you very well KNOW the definition of cheating since you talked about it in "Evenfall", you stupid fucking idiot. (But also, farewell for now until the next book, you mega-dreamboat. #TeamSin)

 

 

That idiotic thing with Kassian, Boyd? It was definitely HAWT, I'll give you that. But also, what a hell of a way to deeply hurt Sin, you asshat.

 

 

The secondary characters remain a pleasure to behold. Ryan, Kassian (I don’t know about you, but I DEFINITELY ship these two), Carhart and also all of the Level 10 trainees.

 

 

And let's not forget about Emilio. I lolled so hard whenever he opened his shameless and unfiltered mouth. His addition to this series is a gift, a treasure, and I had to put down my Kindle at the end of the book and smile out the window for a minute, he just made me that happy.

 

 

Guys, what a great and emotional series this is turning out to be. “Afterimage” was exactly the addictive and mind-blowing book that I've been waiting for. It not only rectified all my complaints from "Evenfall", but paid off with compelling plot lines, captivating suspense and fascinating characterizations.

 

 

I just can’t quit you, ICoS!

Like Reblog Comment
show activity (+)
review 2016-10-16 15:18
Review: "Evenfall" (In the Company of Shadows, #1) by Sonny & Ais
Evenfall - Ais,Santino Hassell

 

(Note: The following review has been provided with pretty ICoS fan art to soothe the fans.)

 

I MADE IT!

 

It took me two whole weeks to get through this 1427-page-long (!) fucker of a book, but I finally made it.

 

And I'm afraid that it was... not really worth it. Sorry, guys.

 

 

You know how some TV shows consist of 24-episodes seasons where most of the episodes are just fillers? You feel like the premise of that show is quite good, but it would have benefitted if it were only 10 or 12 episodes, because the storyline would have been tighter and more compelling? This book just felt like that.

 

Or in a nutshell: this book was too frigging LONG!

 

Now, I am well aware that I've read the original version and there are two edited DCs out there. But even so, these DCs also consist of 334, respectively 344 pages which is STILL to long IMO. Because not much really happens besides inner monologues, repetitions, a lot of completely unnecessary scenes and chapters, and more inner monologues. The whole story could have easily been told in just 300 or 400 pages.

 

 

But one thing at a time.

 

The writing

There were just too much unnecessary paragraphs, scenes, hell even whole chapters. Stuff that added nothing to the overall story, but went on and on and on. Just two examples (believe me, there's more):

 

  • Why do I have to read an entire chapter about how Boyd is giving training lessons to Ryan? In full excruciating details! That whole chapter was completely unnecessary and pointless. And remember that when I say "chapter", we're talking 30-60 pages here.

 

  • Or why do I need to get a full technical explanation about how a GPS equipment is supposed to function? An explanation that - again - went on for pages after pages after pages?

 

And don't get me started on the repetitiveness of certain terms or whole events. Sin's "green eyes" will be hunting me for weeks.

 

 

The characters

Boyd's and Sin's behavior was so contradictory at times that I felt like the authors had two different characters in mind while they wrote the book. Both were like these two super spies one minute and then total imbeciles the next.

 

Boyd was supposed to be this natural and tactical pro when it came to analyze and plan how to infiltrate a hostile compound, but then he turns into a complete idiot when he's confronted with an ordinary oven (!):

 

"Standing back and staring blankly at the glass, he realized he had no idea what it meant to preheat. Obviously he heated it prior to something, but to what? Placing the food inside presumably. But if that was the case, how in the world did he know when it reached the appropriate temperature? Was it important that it was exactly on that degree? If he left it heating long enough, would it heat over 300° or did it have some sort of failsafe that cut off the heat producing agent at the correct time to keep it only at that temperature?"

 

Dude, seriously?

 

Sin, on the other hand, felt jealous about Boyd and Ryan's friendship or if anyone else touched Boyd, but then he goes and outright offers Boyd to another couple for a threesome:

 

"Johnny smirked and bobbed his head in time to the music which was still blaring over the loudspeakers. “Let’s have a farewell three-way, just you, me and the kid. Whaddaya say? In the private rooms, you know? Hot shit.”

Sin snorted and looked away, letting his gaze roam over to the spectacle his coworkers made on the dance floor as they talked loudly and danced excitedly, like children who’d just gotten out of school early. “You’re not my type. Feel free to make the offer to him though.”

 

*facepalms himself unconscious*

 

 

The "romance"

Friends, let's not even go there. Lemme just say that I love me some UST in my books. But there's only so much that even I am willing to tolerate before it becomes annoying, frustrating and yes, utterly ridiculous.

 

Boyd's and Sin's back and forth got to the point where I completely stopped caring about their relationship. By the time they finally did the dirty (and in a very disappointing and unsatisfying scene at that), I was already over them as a couple. Add to that the most unromantic declaration of love that I have EVER read in a romance novel, and you could stick a fork in me, because I was D.O.N.E.

 

 

Nevertheless, I will continue with the series, because of the following reasons:

 

1. I really liked the last 30% when the pace of the story finally began to pick up, I got some action and something was finally happening. That part was suspenseful, exciting and thrilling. I was glued to my Kindle and I wanted to know what would happen next. So I'm crossing my fingers that this will set the tone for the rest of the series.

 

2. With the annoying UST out of the picture (and Boyd and Sin finally fucking), I hope there's more focus on the missions and the action and the overall story. Because I want to know more about the Agency and Janus.

 

3. RYAN! Love him, adore him, want to cuddle him. He's my favorite character and he stole every scene that he was in. I want to know more about him and I definitely want more of him and Andrew.

 

So would I recommend this book? Probably not. Maybe if you're an avid reader and you're reading hundreds of books per year, then you could give this one a chance. But if you don't have that much time to read and can only read every now and then, then you're probably better off reading 5-6 average long books instead.

 

More posts
Your Dashboard view:
Need help?