A literary classic that should be made into a movie ... wait a moment, wrong book.

Why anyone chooses to write about vampires in 2015 is beyond me, but here we go. Peter Cawdron did, and I read it. I knew it will scare the crap out of me, just by looking at the cover, and I was right about that.

Vampire, with the subtle (I´m being ironic here) subtitle "van Helsing diaries" reads more like a psychological crime thriller than any kind of "real" vampire story, but no worries, nothing that sparkles in any way, shape or form.

Dr Jane Langford, a psychologist, is called to action after a murder in Boise, Idaho to eval the mental state of mind of the murderer, which leads to a suicide investigation and bodies piling up fast.

Jane is the only character that is fully developed IMO while the cast of different characters are sorta there but not more, and she sure gets from all professional to (almost... almost? hard to tell) mentally breaking down. And as the center of the story she should be the one who as I reader can count on. That I can´t is the best thing, as I have to question her as well as Jane has to question what is happening all around her.

The snowy and chilly late autumn setting is marvelous, though, and gives the story this really creepy feeling and made me very feel at unease. There is an urgency here where you know something´s going to happen, and it does. The horror behind the locked bathroom door.

For a novella it sure pulls a lot of punches, but where the real genius is in the mix of Bram Stoker´s Dracula with Cawdron´s own story, where everything´s intertwined without being able to tell where reality ends and insanity begins. This is Cawdron´s strongest point here to use Dracula to not only reinterpret it in a new way (and he probably sees something in it which is not there and was never intended to be there), but to use it is a setting on it´s own, or more like a background to tell his story about.. well, a vampire, as it spelled out as the title of the book already.

But... but... but... I´m not buying it. Not completely anyway.

While the premise of the story itself is crazy fantastic there are several WTF moments. Langford doing a courtsey call to a prison after another psychologist was killed and immediately gets access to a prisoner, and even so immediately knows he is suffering from schizophrenia. Langford carrying a 45 colt in her jacket pocket which she never picked up prior and shooting it 13 times, coz why not? Fiction it is for sure.

It´s creepy as hell, and the paranoia is getting stronger with every page, all true, but I did have a hard time to overlook those inconsistencies and where Cawdron was playing armchair psychologist on his own. So torn on it, damnit. It was a fascinating read, though, and if you´re easily creeped out as I am... *shudder* The ending, however, left me unimpressed as it is really spelled out straight away, and the conclusion pretty obvious. While obvious it came rather fast too, and left the story sorta hanging in the air.

With that said, I need a Tylenol now.

Da ich kürzlich die sechte Staffel von der Fernsehserie beendet habe, beschloss ich nun auch die Bücher zu lesen mit einer großen Vorfreude denn wie man weiß sind die Bücher immer besser als ihre Adoptionen. Doch in diesem Fall bekam ich eine Klatche ins Gesicht... das Buch ist alles andere als besser, es ist schlechter! Nunja vielleicht sollte mich näher über die Bücher erkundigen, aber erst später erfuhr ich, dass der erste Teil den ich lese ('The Awakening' oder 'Im Zwilicht') für 12 jährige Empfolen ist! Und dies trifft definitif of die Figuren des Buches. Nich nur, dass die supporting characters total unscheinbar und unrealistisch bzw. beschreibunglos sind, die Hauptfigur Elena Gilbert ist hier eine 'typische' Blondine wie sie es in dem Vorurteilsbuche steht. Sie ist dumm, selbstsüchtig, die Hübscheste und Beliebteste der Schule und will immer gewinnen.
Ihr Charakter war wirklich die größte Enttäuschung.
dennoch muss ich sagen lässt es sich flüssig lesen und ist nicht ganz langweilig. Ich kann mir vorstellen, dass mein 12 Jähriges Ich dieses Buch lieben würde.
Im Fazit möchte ich allen die die Serie lieben und sich auf die Bücher freuen warnen, dass es sich nichts zum freuen gibt, aber man könnte trotzdem sie lesen zur Vollständigkeit.
Ich persönlich werde trotz der Enttäuschung weitere Bücher lesen, aber diesmal leih ich sie mir aus anstatt zu kaufen.

Title: The Awakening [The Vampire Diaries 1]

Author: L.J. Smith

Genre: Young Adult, Paranormal, Romance, Horror, Suspense

Rating: 2 Stars

Description/Synopsis: A deadly love triangle

Elena: beautiful and popular, the girl who can have any guy she wants.

Stefan: brooding and mysterious, desperately trying to resist his desire for Elena . . . for her own good.

Damon: sexy, dangerous, and driven by an urge for revenge against Stefan, the brother who betrayed him.

Elena finds herself drawn to both brothers . . .

who will she choose?

WARNING - SPOILERS MAY ENSUE BEYOND THIS POINT - REVIEW BELOW

So, before we get down to the nitty-gritty, let's talk about the cover. There's actually several covers for this book, but take it from me, most of them are very dated. I had no idea how old these book was until I saw the original cover. Wow. Time warp back to my childhood! The one I've picked to show here is the prettiest, but also the most inaccurate. Why? Because Elena, the main female lead, is blonde. Woops! It also has that annoying CW brand marketing across the top, but I won't hold it against them. They want people to watch the show, and they should... because it's so much better than the book.

I'm one of those people that 9 times out of 10 will tell you that reading the book is better than watching the movie/show. It's one of those things that Hollywood has ingrained in my head for years. The books are cannon--nay, gospel--and I tend to view the movie/show attached to them as annoying attempts to remake something that didn't need to be remade. Details are always changed, and it feels like sacrilege. It makes me angry.  Now, in a strange twist of things, if the movie/show comes first and the book second, my opinion usually falls more along the line of "Yay! More content!" It doesn't bother me that the book is different than the movie, because it's just more of the thing I already loved. I'm not sure why there's a double standard, but that's how it is. Unfortunately, in this case all that gets thrown out the window.

The show is better than the book. Hands down.

The book centers around Elena Gilbert, a popular, blonde-haired, blue-eyed high-school student that always gets her way. (Gag) Her parents have just died in a car accident 3 months prior to the story's start, and she's not particularly looking forward to the new year. Her endearing, boy-next-door boyfriend gives her feelings of "meh" in general, but he's the cute jock, and she's the pretty cheerleader, and they've been friends forever. The perfect couple, right? Introduce Elena's shallow and ditzy friends, stir in a hot new boy, and suddenly Elena's dumping her boyfriend and scheming up ways to get in good with the new kid, manipulating her friends and the student body in order to finagle herself onto his radar.

Go ahead. Soak that in.

What Elena doesn't know yet is that the new hot boy, Stefan Salvatore, is a vampire, and Elena is a dead-ringer for his ex-girlfriend. Throw in a few deaths, Stefan's hotter older brother (Damon), who just wants to make Stefan's life a nightmare in any way possible, and you have... well... a really shallow plot.

The writing was good.  The grammar was clean, the style was engaging and clear. From a technical standpoint, there wasn't anything wrong with the story. I did manage to read it all the way to the end (though that may have to do more with loving the show than enjoying the book). The problem, for the most part, was the characters. They weren't likeable. Elena was manipulative, shallow,and selfish. Bonnie was a ditz. Matt was cute in a lost puppy sort of way, but mostly just let Elena walk all over him.  Tyler was a rapist. Caroline seemed to only be present to be snotty and jealous of Elena... though the reasoning was never really explained. I can barely be bothered to even remember who Meredith was. Damon was evil for the sake of needing someone for the rest of the characters to hate. Stefan... Stefan was surprisingly juvenile given his age, and a little bit of a lost puppy when it came to Elena.Tanner (the teacher) hated all his students for no particular reason. He just wanted to be an ass.

Overall, I honestly didn't like any of the characters, and spent most of the book with this feeling that nothing was actually happening. There didn't seem to be a real motive behind anyone's actions except for the immediate "I want this. Now. Right now. Why? Because I do."  This kind of barely-there plot works with the TV show because it's serialized. The first episode introduces the world (which equated to this book by the way) but no major plot issues came up... those were saved for later in the season. This book worked the same way. It was an introduction to the characters and the world... but nothing really happened. Unfortunately, the characters just couldn't hold it up on their own.

The romance was laughable. Honestly. Elena wasn't particularly drawn to Stefan, she spotted a hot guy and said "dibs!" She wanted him because he was the hot new guy, not because there was sexual chemistry or his personality was endearing. Stefan was intrigued by Elena, mostly because she looked like his ex-girlfriend. I didn't feel the chemistry. They were your basic teen couple that "fell in love" based on the premise that they could. It was maddening to see how flimsy the whole thing was. In fact, the most interesting part of the story was when people started getting murdered. Thank god for the irrelevant deaths of teens and a teacher, or I would have closed the book.

Overall, did I like the book? Surprisingly, no. I say surprisingly because I AM an avid watcher of the show. I've seen every episode of the past four seasons. I honestly thought I'd love the books. Instead, I finally understand why the show is so different from the novels. It had to change--that was the only way they could make it into half-way decent entertainment. I don't recommend the book. Seriously. Go watch the show instead. It may be your typical YA Paranormal Romance full of vampires and angsty love, but at least there's a plot.

The Vampire Diaries: The Awakening & The Struggle
L. J. Smith
Released: 26th June, 2007

Book Summary:

Elena: the golden girl, the leader, the one who can have any boy she wants.

Stefan: brooding and mysterious, he seems to be the only one who can resist Elena, even as he struggles to protect her from the horrors that haunt his past.

Damon: sexy, dangerous, and driven by an urge for revenge against Stefan, the brother who betrayed him. Determined to have Elena, he'd kill to possess her.

Collected here in one volume for the first time, volumes one and two of The Vampire Diaries, the tale of two vampire brothers and the beautiful girl torn between them.

What I like: The idea around the book was something that got me interested, and more importantly what had happened to the brothers and why was Damon so determined on revenge against Stefan? The side characters were developed and they weren't just there to occasionally help move the plot, they were actually people who I could see had motives and goals and they weren't all like-minded which was something I really enjoyed. The plot idea was something that really interested me and while it wasn't exactly what I was hoping for I liked it.

What I didn’t like: In the first book Elena just didn't seem very relatable, not that she had to be, but she just seemed determined to have things done her way and only her way which put me off for a bit. There were tropes in it that I'm very familiar with and think are overdone especially with how they were handled:

Overall review: Even thought there were things I feel could have been done better I enjoyed the dual book overall, especially the second book. There was tension and character development and you learn things about each of them and overall I felt it was an enjoyable read. There will come a day when I get the chance to finish the rest of the series and I'm excited to see what happens!

Recommend?: Yes! I enjoyed it and I'm certain that many people who enjoy reading books about vampires will enjoy it.

Goodreads: 3.6/5

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Barnes&Nobles: 4/5 BookDepository: —/5

My Rating: 3.6/5

Rated Material

Cover=4
Story=3.5
Idea=3.7

Character= 3.2

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