This is one of those books that timing I am sure is everything. After my last 3 weeks in the Flesh Cartel series this one fell short for me. And strangely I found myself mostly aroused. Should I feel disturbed? I am honestly not sure what my reaction should be. If I am supposed to feel arousal then the first 80% of this worked for me. However the last 20% just fell flat. There was really nothing earth shattering about the ending and was not near as fucked up as the ending I had created in my own mind. Actions from both parties seemed out of character with what occured the rest of the book and therefore it was even more difficult to believe. Oh well...the illustrations were quite beautiful and I wish more book had these additions.
I wanted so badly to love this. And I did really enjoy it but this is not my favorite of Roan’s work. The depth of exploration into the dynamics of these characters and this couple was lacking for me. And honestly this is probably just a personal beef but my gawd…3 pages at 50% just kinda destroyed things in my eyes and I lost my feelings for this couple to the point that as wonderful as the end was, I just couldn’t get back the feelings I had developed for them as a couple.
What Will did in “Where We Left Off”, I understood. His actions and their relationship was so beautifully crafted that it just made sense to me and I never hurt the way I did in this book. In a matter of 3 pages, when I had thought a reconciliation was coming, I got handed “Two Months Later” followed by “I plucked him from the small crowd waiting for us backstage and fucked him against the counter in my dressing room, his hands and his release leaving smears on the mirror. This was how it had been. A parade of men who, for just a few minutes, gave me something to hold onto.” And then throw in a real reconciliation and the decision to forgo condoms after months of fucking around with no mention of testing…yeah, I kinda lost my shit over Theo’s actions and honestly was not able to really let this go in my head.
What occurs is almost stating in passing as if it meant nothing. And I get it probably didn’t in the grand scheme of things, but in reality, it did. At least to me. I never felt the reason he was doing this…there was no lead up to these actions for me to understand why and as a result it made the relationship he did have with Caleb less important in my eyes. I mean towards the end of the book, he realizes Caleb needs time to process things. Why couldn’t he see this earlier…that Caleb was just being fucking stupid and needed time. Instead he resorts to what I perceive is typical Rock Star behavior and fucks nameless faces in his dressing room…which for me did not seem like the Theo we were getting to know at all. Nice.
Oh well. Overall, this is beautifully written, as all of Roan’s work is…just wish I had connected to these two more. And know my personal issue with this book is just that and did not seem to bother the others reading this book with me at all. To each his own. I will definitely be reading more in this series
Not even sure I was aware of Somniphobia but good heavens my heart breaks for anyone struggling with this fear. A fear that affects not only the person mentally but quite physically as well. And I felt it all in this story.
This book starts and ends quite sweet and loving. A true romance. But what occurs in the middle 60% of this book hurt. But hurt in the way Nicky James does her best. Once again she has shown a strength in her desires to explore love and mental illness and she did so quite remarkably.
I struggled a little with the connection between Finnley and Aven and while they no doubt loved and supported one another, their bond was less felt than with other books by this author.
I eagerly await the next in this series and more on heliophobia. Wow.
First off...this book needs a rape warning. I mean it’s not graphic but 3/4 of this book revolves around the trauma associated with sexual abuse. So to start out this book thinking I’m heading in one direction and be led into this was very troubling...especially since Book 2 includes a self harm warning of which that aspect was quite minimal.
That aside there were parts of this third installment that were absolutely beautiful and the love Alastair has for Brandon overwhelmingly touching. I love their connection.
Once the recovery begins, it happens quite quickly. Almost too quick for my taste...not sure how realistic that is and yet Brandon tends to be one who continues to jump every hurdle set before him.
I would have liked another scene with Chase and Brandon as well. But the HEA was much deserved.
Definitely worth the read but I’m pleased to see the growth of Nicky James since these first books.