Together we are strong.
Together we will survive.
The mind amazes and scares me. Knowing people in my life who have mental issues and seeing firsthand the images and situations that can be created within the mind is fascinating but also so damn frightening. The mind holds really all the power over the human body and to see a mind conjure up such vivid images and thoughts is scary. And yet, the mind can also protect the body by guarding memories from coming forward. How? I am utterly amazed. Ok I am crying now.
This book is one that I feel will stay with me for the rest of my life. I fell in love with all of these beautiful characters and personalities. Their differences, their similarities and yet their common love for Oryn. Their true desire to protect.
This is not a book I can easily review however. This is a journey and an experience that as a reader you just need to submerge yourself into. DID, or Dissociative Identity Disorder, from what I have since read further about on line, is so amazingly and accurately depicted in this book. Written with such care and compassion.
Yes, disorder is chaotic. Yes, it is chaos. And yet for me this disorder is offering protection. It is creating safety and love and the mind is trying to hold together something that could spiral out of control if it were not doing so. For me this book is about order not chaos. This is about the mind finding a way. And Vaughn…gaaahhh sweet Vaughn. If everyone could look at another human being the way Vaughn looks at Oryn, this world would be a better place. Ok literally, I cannot see my screen through the tears. I need to stop now.
Read this book. Just read it. Go in with as accepting of a mind as Vaughn, and while you will be as scared as he is at times, you will feel so many similar emotions, conflicting thoughts and will be equally challenged by what is considered “normal”. Realize not every relationship is the same, not every mind is the same and certainly not every love is the same.
*This might be slightly spoilery so proceed at your own risk.*
This was certainly the case with this book. There was a lot that just didn't work for me on this but at the same time, there were some positives...mainly the Brothers.
While this, I guess, is a romance, I would probably equate this more about the brothers than about the relationship. And saying that, makes a lot of my issues easier to deal with.
Because, for me the issues were in how Rey was handled. He wasn't. This is a character who at a young age woke up to his house burning because his father attempted to kill he and his mother. After being saved, there is no explaination on how this character dealt with this and ultimately became a fire firefighter. Would there not have been any PTSD? Maybe not, and yet nothing is explained.
We were given Rey's POV but it was no where close to 50% of the book...my guess would be maybe 25%. This made the balance off for me, as I never really felt a connection to him or this relationship, again reiterating that this is a series about the brothers and not the couples.
While I loved Jules, the situation that occured after Rey and Gus broke up seemed not to bother Rey at all. And at some point it seemed that in the 3 years following this, neither man slept with anyone else? Maybe I read this wrong, but this seemed off to me. Rey's 180 degree switch in how he viewed Gus also seemed rather abrupt.
I have no concept of a time line, the age of all parties and when certain situations happened in relation to others. These boys came to live with each other at varying points but how this relates to certain moments in their lives was difficult to follow. I am hoping maybe more of this is explained as the series progresses.
The writing overall did not gel with me at all. I found myself having to reread paragraphs and lines multiple times to understand what was being said. After a while, this became quite annoying, and not how I understand this author's other books to be.
All that said, the brothers are intriguing and I find each of them very unique and worthy of their own book, which I will most definitely read.