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review 2019-10-24 11:09
Magie und Verschwörungen auf offener See
The Red Wolf Conspiracy (Chathrand Voyages, #1) - Robert V.S. Redick

Robert V.S. Redick hat einen Master in Tropenschutz. Während seines Studiums arbeitete er in Argentinien, an der Patagonischen Küste. Elf Tage verbachte er auf Valdés, einer kleinen Halbinsel mit atemberaubender Flora und Fauna. Eines Morgens ging er allein spazieren. Es war neblig. Er sah hinaus auf den Südatlantik und plötzlich überfiel ihn die Vision eines gigantischen Schiffes, das vor seinen Augen an den Klippen zerschellte. Einige Jahre später wurde er auf die Libertad eingeladen, ein Segelschulschiff der argentinischen Kriegsmarine. An Bord erinnerte er sich an seine Vision und legte den Grundstein für seine High Fantasy – Reihe „The Chathrand Voyage“, die mit „The Red Wolf Conspiracy“ beginnt.

 

Sechs Jahrhunderte war die IMS Chathrand das Juwel der arqualischen Schifffahrt. Ihre gigantischen Ausmaße waren legendär, sie erlebte Kriege und Piraterie, bereiste die entlegensten Ozeane Alifros‘ und legte unzählige Seemeilen zurück. Sie war die letzte ihrer Art, ein Relikt einer vergangenen Epoche. Ihr allein gebührte es, zu der vielleicht wichtigsten diplomatischen Mission ihrer reichen Geschichte aufzubrechen: bemannt von 800 Seelen sollte sie Frieden zwischen Arqual und Mzithrin stiften. Doch an Bord gingen seltsame Dinge vor sich. Soldat_innen und Assassinen mischten sich unter die Seeleute, in den Eingeweiden des Schiffes versteckte sich das verhasste Volk der Ixchel und ein Schiffsjunge namens Pazel erlebte Fluch und Segen seiner rätselhaften Sprachtalente. Magie, Intrigen und Verschwörungen brachten sie auf ihrer bedeutenden Fahrt vom Kurs ab, bis eines Tages keine Nachrichten mehr in ihrer Heimat eintrafen. Vor der Insel Talturi, nicht weit entfernt von der Küste Mzithrins, wurde das Wrack ihres Langbootes und die Leichen der Besatzung gefunden. Ganz Arqual fragt sich: was ist mit der Chathrand geschehen? Kann das gewaltige Schiff tatsächlich verschollen sein?

 

Ich liebe Seefahrtgeschichten. Deshalb hatte Robert V.S. Redick mit „The Red Wolf Conspiracy“ bei mir eigentlich von Anfang an leichtes Spiel. Tatsächlich verliebte ich mich sofort in die IMS Chathrand; in meiner Fantasie ist sie eine beeindruckende Schönheit kaum vorstellbarer Dimensionen. Sie ist ein Mysterium und eine schwimmende Stadt; uralt, weitgereist und aus mittlerweile versiegten oder vergessenen Rohstoffen erbaut. Vermutlich kennt niemand alle ihrer Ecken und Winkel, weshalb sie voller Geheimnisse steckt, die sie, einer Lady angemessen, diskret bewahrt. Ich tollte in Gedanken neugierig und aufgeregt wie ein Kind über ihre sieben Decks und hatte Spaß daran, stetig Neues zu entdecken. Mein Forschergeist wurde durch das Wissen, dass die Chathrand offiziell verschwunden ist, zusätzlich angeheizt. Diese Information erhalten Leser_innen noch vor Beginn der Geschichte durch einen Zeitungsartikel. Sie bleibt im Verlauf präsent, weil Redick sich einer überraschenden Mischung von Stilmitteln bediente, um den Anschein einer Beweismittelsammlung zu erwecken. Briefe und Tagebucheinträge, die teilweise sogar kommentiert sind, ließen mich nie vergessen, dass der Verbleib der Chathrand ungeklärt ist. Ich brannte darauf, herauszufinden, was mit ihr geschehen ist und inwiefern ihr Verschwinden mit der vertrackten politischen Lage zwischen Arqual und Mzithrin zusammenhängt. Obwohl Redick die Handlung von „The Red Wolf Conspiracy“ mit dem Setting der Chathrand räumlich stark begrenzte, erschien sie mir niemals als isoliertes Kammerspiel. Es ist eindeutig, dass alles, was an Bord passiert, eine Folge seines lebhaften Designs der Welt Alifros ist. Arqual und Mzithrin sind tonangebende Nationen, die einen Konflikt austragen, in dem Intrigen und Diplomatie beinahe gleichbedeutend sind. Die heikle Friedensmission, die die Chathrand erfüllen soll und die durch mehrere Verschwörungen sabotiert wird, schlägt allerdings Wellen, die über diese beiden Akteure hinausgehen und unter anderem auch die Ixchel betreffen. Ich bin von diesen etwa 20cm winzigen Krieger_innen begeistert und kann gar nicht verstehen, wieso solche Völker nicht häufiger in der High Fantasy auftreten. Redick überzeugte mich mit vielen dieser frischen Ideen, die „The Red Wolf Conspiracy“ zu einem Selbstläufer hätten machen sollen. Unglücklicherweise entpuppte sich der Reihenauftakt hingegen als eine schwierige Lektüre. Ich kam nicht voran und habe ewig gebraucht, weil mich die seltsame Taktung der Geschichte immer wieder ausbremste. Jedes Mal, wenn der Spannungsbogen einen Höhepunkt erreichte, nahm der Autor die entscheidende(n) Figur(en) aus dem Bild. Zum Beispiel wird der Protagonist Pazel genau dann von der Chathrand verbannt, als sich die Aufdeckung einer Verschwörung anbahnt, weshalb ich die folgenden Entwicklungen nicht mehr miterlebte. Dadurch ergaben sich große Handlungssprünge, die Interessantes ausklammerten und stattdessen weniger wichtige Nebendramen fokussierten. Ich hatte Mühe, dranzubleiben und musste mich zwingen, weiterzulesen.

 

Grundsätzlich mochte ich alles, was mir Robert V.S. Redick in „The Red Wolf Conspiracy“ servierte. Trotz dessen empfinde ich die Geschichte bisher noch als recht unübersichtlich. Es ist nicht ganz leicht, allen inhaltlichen Verknüpfungen zu folgen. Zukünftig sollte der Autor Prioritäten setzen und sich auf das Wesentliche konzentrieren, statt ausschmückendes Beiwerk zu schreiben, das die ohnehin kniffelige Lage in Alifros zusätzlich verkompliziert. Gelingt ihm das, sollte sich das Problem mit der Taktung ganz von selbst lösen. Ich bin gewillt, ihm mit der Fortsetzung von „The Chathrand Voyage“, „The Rats and the Ruling Sea“, eine weitere Chance einzuräumen, denn ich glaube durchaus an das Potential der Reihe und möchte mehr von Redicks faszinierender Welt sehen. Außerdem weiß ich noch nicht, was mit der Chathrand geschehen ist und dieses Geheimnis muss ich einfach lüften. Dumm sterben ist keine Option.

Source: wortmagieblog.wordpress.com/2019/10/24/robert-v-s-redick-the-red-wolf-conspiracy
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text 2014-11-07 17:24
So addicted to Comic books, aka latest purchases
Bone, Vol. 5: Rock Jaw, Master of the Eastern Border - Jeff Smith,Steve Hamaker
Penny Dora and the Wishing Box #1 (of 5) Cover A Grace - Michael Stock
Sketch Monsters Book 2: The New Kid - Joshua Williamson,Vincent Navarrette

Also got but don't have time to enter: Spell Checkers Vol 1 and Xeno trip 1

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review 2014-03-05 00:00
I Hate You, Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality
I Hate You, Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality - Jerold J. Kreisman,Hal Straus This is a review of the revised edition. It is my understanding that this edition is substantially updated.

This book is an overview of Borderline Personality Disorder. The biggest problem that I have with the book is that the book does not really know who it is written for. There are three distinct audiences for Borderline Books. The first audience is medical practitioners, the second Borderlines themselves and the third loved ones of Borderlines. There is also a fourth audience that is everyone that doesn't fit those three categories. To some degree, this book is written for that audience. That is an OK thing, but I don't think that the book really communicates the reality of this illness to those who have not experienced it first hand.

My own experience is replete with people with this illness. I now know that because of some experiences in my early childhood, I formed a personality that was attracted to and almost ideally suited for people who suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. I am also attracted to similar personality types to my own which often have at least one Borderline in their life as well. As a result, it appears to be the case that there are a freakishly large number of individuals in my past history who suffered either from BPD or from behavioural patterns closely associated with it.

My own experience of Borderlines is that while all Borderlines have a lot in common there can be sharp differences in how those Borderlines whose rage is mostly sent inward act, as opposed to those where their rage is directed outward. This book tends to focus on cases where the rage is primarily directed inward, although there is often a mother figure in the background of the case studies who is plausibly borderline and whose rage is directed outward.

It is also a lot more optimistic than I would be about the Borderline's prognosis. My experience is that Bordelines tend to get worse and that this continues into old age. Their destructiveness tends to be more and more directed outward and if they are in therapy they get more and more adroit at manipulating and lying to their therapists. Borderlines are adept at constructing an external image of what others want them to be and they do this to therapists as well and because they do this all day long they become extremely good at it. My experience has led me to be deeply pessimistic about treatment for Borderlines.

As I have mentioned, I have known many probable Borderline's in my life, and my life has been fundamentally shaped by their behaviour. I have in general been advised not to publicly discuss this for career reasons, but I think that it is critically important that this disease becomes as well known as other mental health issues such as depression, PTSD or alcoholism. There is a real taboo around this illness and in effect a conspiracy of silence. Other than medical professionals, I have had to explain what this illness is to everyone, I have ever talked about it with. It appears to be much more common than many other illnesses such as schizophrenia, however there is no awareness of it. Because the illness is often associated with spectacular abuse there is a stigma around labeling people with this illness, although it is clear than many borderlines are not abusive.

However, one person I was in a relationship with, was such a severe case and so mentally ill, destructive and abusive that there was initial disbelief that anyone would engage in her behaviour and this only changed when she was first identified as fitting the Borderline pattern. Her behaviour was often practically sociopathic in nature. She has not been diagnosed with this illness and I do not believe that she ever will allow herself to be put in a situation where she will be. But, quite frankly, it is the only conceivable explanation for her bizarre behaviour and my recovery has been successfully based on this hypothesis.

The chapter on how loved ones should deal with people with Borderline Personality Disorder is I think naive. It emphasizes a strategy of Support, Empathy and Truth. I have a tendency to behave in that way anyway, which is part of what attracts Borderlines to me and that can be successful. In the case of the profoundly damaging relationship, attempts to abide by that strategy would result in much more dramatic and rapid mood swings. She also was intrinsically threatened by truth and I do not think that there was any way to reach her. I deeply believed that I could love her to health and I am concerned that this chapter might lead people with a similar problem to me, to believe that this is possible.

I struggle to understand this illness, because its affect on my life has been so fundamental and as a consequence my life has become defined by the effects of a mental illness that I do not have but have suffered from at second hand. I think that society as a whole does not understand this illness. Most people have not heard of it and those who have, including in my experience therapists, struggle to understand it.

This book, I think, also struggles to understand the illness. The initial chapters that talk about abandonment issues, the splitting, the intense rapid mood swings and manipulativeness are reasonably good. But Borderlines can take all sorts of shapes. This book helped me understand some of the other people that I have known that probably have this illness, but it did not help me that much in understanding the Borderline that fundamentally harmed me. Admittedly, that Borderline was an extreme case and she has been labelled by various different therapists as abusive, manipulative, controlling, demonic, despicable, sociopathic, a torturer, a brainwasher and, on more occasions than I can count, as evil. Because of the brainwashing, I had to hear these things and that has been a difficult journey for me. Of course, being a borderline, there was another side to her that was as sweet and kind and, what appeared to be, loving as anyone that I have ever met. In short, she was of the subset of sufferers of Borderline Personality Disorder that are extreme abusive monsters. I read this book to understand her better, it helped, but not as much as I would have wanted.

The book ignores behaviour that can be extremely toxic or criminal and this does occur in some cases. In the end. that that degree of cruelty and remorselessness could be combined with someone who in other ways was a good person remains a complete mystery to me and this book did not help in understanding that mystery despite its promising title.
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review 2013-03-08 00:00
I Hate You, Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality
I Hate You, Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality - Jerold J. Kreisman,Hal Straus I'm just skimming 'I Hate You..." and "Sometimes I Act Crazy..." both because they have some nomenclature and familiar language and territory that's good for me right now. I need to be in this zone anyway for a while. It's like knowing there are 'others out there' by reading these books. I'll tell you, it's like opening the book, flipping around and just knowing your'e not a good match, the same way it happens when you go to a therapist for the first time. I've been dealing with BPD and other 'conditions' since forever. This is like milk therapy, drinking some to settle your stomach. I know that doesn't make sense, it couldn't possibly unless you were me.
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review 2012-09-28 00:00
I Hate You, Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality by Jerold J. Kriesman & Hal Straus
I Hate You Don't Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality - Jerold J. Kreisman,Hal Straus

Rating: 2.5 of 5

 

A quick read, I'm not sure I Hate You, Don't Leave Me would prove all that enlightening, or even helpful, for anyone seeking a deep examination of borderline personalities. It's rather broad except for the case studies, which weren't varied enough, in my opinion.

 

Chapter 4 - The Borderline Society was interesting, but readers have to make certain allowances for the year the book was published (1989) and realize a lot of the information, analyses and statistics are probably outdated.

 

"The ever-growing reverence for science and technology has led to an obsessive pursuit of precision. Calculators and computers replace memorized multiplication tables and slide rules. Velcro deprives children of learning how to tie shoelaces. Creativity and intellectual diligence are sacrificed to convenience and precision (p.67)."

 

Chapter 5 - Understanding and Healing offered more actionable insight than previous chapters.

 

"Psychological change requires resisting unproductive automatic reflexes and consciously and willfully choosing other alternatives - choices that are different, even opposite, from automatic reflex - sometimes these new ways of behaving are frightening, but they hopefully are more efficient ways of coping (p.90)."

 

Overall, it did not contain the information I was looking for.

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